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Dying of Essay
Oct. 3rd, 2005 11:48 pmHELP ME. I'M GOING FUCKING INSANE.
Why, oh why do I do this, ALL THE TIME?
Here's the state of things. 2500 word media essay, due tomorrow, by 5pm. Time now is 11:49 pm. Current word count: 479. Have to start work tomorrow morning at 7:30am til 1pm. Have lecture at 4pm, meaning I have to leave the house no later than 3:15. Meaning I must write it tonight, because tomorrow I will have about two hours to work on it.
I honestly don't think I'm going to get this done. Is it worth 5% to hand it in a day late, so it's not dreck? Will it not be dreck, if it's a day late?
The problem is, I still don't know what to write. I'm trying to plan it, and I don't know what to say.
The question is about media - convergence, pluralisation or globalisation, and which of them we think is the most important. I've chosen pluralisation - fandom and fan produxation, participatory cultures. I've read heaps - too much, probably - my reference list is a page and a half long.
I want to write about fanfic writing as participatory writing - writing as a communal process, fanfic as creating new meanings from shared texts and perhaps that affecting the idea of self - how the internet allows this and is instrumental to it. But I keep running into the so what question - how is this relevant, why does it matter? Is it just because pluralisation supports media convergence, purely economic, or is the cultural capital worth more, and to who? I've read HEAPS about the skills or writing in themselves, and how fanfic shapes writing ability, but that's not what media studies is about, and that's not what I'm interested in. I'm interested in what people get out of it, what meanings they create and how writing fic online is relevant to their offline lives. I want to talk abotu slash, but not in this first bit. I want to leave that for later, because I don't want the entire essay to be about slash - I did a cultural studies essay about slash, and I have to be careful that I'm not submitting something that's very similar, else they could try and tell me I'm plagiarising myself by submitting the same thing twice.
Slash will be easier, because of the heterosexual women re-writing masculinity and re-imagining themselves, but I need to get through the first part, first. If someone has any idea what I've been going on about, and could throw me an angle, that would help me enormously. What the hell am I going to say for 1000 words about communal writing?
Why, oh why do I do this, ALL THE TIME?
Here's the state of things. 2500 word media essay, due tomorrow, by 5pm. Time now is 11:49 pm. Current word count: 479. Have to start work tomorrow morning at 7:30am til 1pm. Have lecture at 4pm, meaning I have to leave the house no later than 3:15. Meaning I must write it tonight, because tomorrow I will have about two hours to work on it.
I honestly don't think I'm going to get this done. Is it worth 5% to hand it in a day late, so it's not dreck? Will it not be dreck, if it's a day late?
The problem is, I still don't know what to write. I'm trying to plan it, and I don't know what to say.
The question is about media - convergence, pluralisation or globalisation, and which of them we think is the most important. I've chosen pluralisation - fandom and fan produxation, participatory cultures. I've read heaps - too much, probably - my reference list is a page and a half long.
I want to write about fanfic writing as participatory writing - writing as a communal process, fanfic as creating new meanings from shared texts and perhaps that affecting the idea of self - how the internet allows this and is instrumental to it. But I keep running into the so what question - how is this relevant, why does it matter? Is it just because pluralisation supports media convergence, purely economic, or is the cultural capital worth more, and to who? I've read HEAPS about the skills or writing in themselves, and how fanfic shapes writing ability, but that's not what media studies is about, and that's not what I'm interested in. I'm interested in what people get out of it, what meanings they create and how writing fic online is relevant to their offline lives. I want to talk abotu slash, but not in this first bit. I want to leave that for later, because I don't want the entire essay to be about slash - I did a cultural studies essay about slash, and I have to be careful that I'm not submitting something that's very similar, else they could try and tell me I'm plagiarising myself by submitting the same thing twice.
Slash will be easier, because of the heterosexual women re-writing masculinity and re-imagining themselves, but I need to get through the first part, first. If someone has any idea what I've been going on about, and could throw me an angle, that would help me enormously. What the hell am I going to say for 1000 words about communal writing?
