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[featherxquill]

My God, you guys. I so badly want a cigarette today, it's not even funny. As soon as the sun's out and the weather starts warming up in a summery way, I want to smoke. It's crazy.

And you know what? I really do want to. Sitting out at the table outside on a warm day, reading and smoking? I fucking miss it. I miss it bad. As soon as the weather starts warming up, I start thinking about it, about those long summer afternoons reading and smoking and relaxing.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

But I want to travel again more. I want to go overseas again. I need to know that it is possible, that I am working for something other than paying off debt. And the only way that I can afford that is to bank my smoke money every week.

Just needed to type that out, to remind myself why I am doing this.

Comments

[therealsnape.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, my dear. I admire you tremendously for managing for so long already.
We'd all love to see you come to Europe.
Auntie Muriel waits for you.

[minervas-eule.livejournal.com]

Yes, do tell us, we listen - it's all we can do for you (being as far away as possible....while it is warming up at your place, it is getting cold here *LOL*); it is absolutely great that you still stick to your determination: it will be worth it!!!

[kellychambliss.livejournal.com]

It will be worth it! Stop in the US when you're on your world travels; I know where there's a guest room /g/. And if it would be added incentive, I can tell you details of my aunt's smoking-induced lung cancer. You'll might be happy to be cig-less then!

[modernpirates.livejournal.com]

This is crazy, I've been having the smoke urges a LOT recently too. All of a sudden I notice everyone who smokes out and about it's crazy. But you are doing fantastically at the moment and staying so strong! It'll all be worth it in the end; you'll get to travel AND have good health :) Hang in there! ♥

[an-fhanai.livejournal.com]

Blergh. I know just what you mean. :\ It's good that you've got such a definite goal in mind, that always helps counteract temptation. I need to think in those terms, as soon as late summer sets in, so the cravings.

[iulia_linnea.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, babe. *hugs*

[cranky--crocus.livejournal.com]

What Kelly says! Come visit when you're around! You can do it. (: Have you used that site that alerts you to how much money you are saving every day? My friend found that helpful.